Panic

Today marks one week until I go back to school. Boo. Don't get me wrong... I am thankful to have a job in this economy & the chance to help provide for my family. But as I near this milestone, the one word that best sums up my feelings is PANIC!!!!

I know, I know, plenty of people do it every day...the whole work and have two kids thing. But I worry... Will I have enough quality time with both of them? How will I manage to wash dishes/cook dinner/ do laundry/ grade papers, oh and also that thing called sleep with a 6 week old baby who still wakes up every three hours a night to eat??

I have been reminded many times in the last week that the Lord is in control and not me. There absolutely is no way I could do this on my own, nor do I have to. A friend recently reminded me that all our deeds - seen or unseen- matter. As 1 Corinthians 3 says that we choose what we will build on our foundation with. As a mom and a teacher ( two jobs that often feel unappreciated )my prayer is that I will build my students and my own children with the knowledge of the Lord and treating others with kindness & love. They have to see those qualities in ME first!!! My prayer is that I won't get caught up in whether or not my house is perfect ( or even clean!) the laundry done etc but that I have built quality foundations with my family that will last way longer than a clean house ( which I have learned doesn't really last that long anyway :) For my type A personality, this is definitely a big prayer for our big God!

I have been eaten up with anxiety over trying to have "control" over the coming situations- which I don't even know yet! I know that I have to let go and trust in the Lord & his provision to care for our family.

" don't be anxious over anything, but in everything through prayer & supplication with thanksgiving submit your requests to God. And the peace which passes all understanding will guard your hearts & minds in Christ Jesus." Philippians 4:6-7